My Memory Impairment Journey

Disconnected!

This is how I sometimes feel.

Even though I am sitting on the couch with my boyfriend.

It seems so strange for me to feel this way, but unfortunately I can't change it.

Sometimes even though I'm sitting right next to him, I need to feel even closer.

There are times when I need to be touching him, so I will hold his hand.

I don't feel like “me”.

Why do I feel this way?

There are no answers!

Perhaps there is something in my mind that is making me feel afraid.

It is almost as if I don't remember who he is.

I wonder if the “fog” has rolled in.

It is strange for me to feel this way because I thought that I always felt safe with him.

This is what it is like for me living with a memory impairment.

I really HATE feeling this way!

I'm so very grateful that these things only last for a short time.

I don't think that I told him how I was feeling, but he might have figured it out by himself.

Although at the time, we didn't talk about it, the next day, I did tell him how I was feeling.

I do know that I have felt like this before, but I just don't remember exactly when.

During these times, my perception is that he is ignoring me.

That is only “my perception”, because in reality, he is not doing that.

At the time, it seems so real to me, but it is only “my reality”.