How the Fog Makes ME Feel?
By Cheryl Stevenson Oct. 2017
When the fog rolls into my brain, I feel annoyed that it is interfering with me living my life!
It can make me fearful & sometimes I feel all alone!
I try to do my best to stay calm until I come out of the fog.
Concerned that the clarity won't return soon.
Tears will sometimes flow.
Sometimes the fog invades my life for just a few brief moments.
Then other times, it seems as though the fog will never be lifted.
The fog could also roll into my brain off and on throughtout the day.
Depending on the thickness of the fog it could take only a few minutes for it to pass but it could also last a lot longer.
I refer to these moments or days in my life as “bumps” in the road.
There are times when I’m aware that the fog is rolling in as it is happening to me.
Then there are times when it just hits me like a brick!
It feels as though my brain is malfunctioning, broken, and the filing system is messed up!
During the fog, it can take me longer to do things.
Some tasks can be much more difficult to do and some can’t be done at all!
There are times when I'm in the fog that I can communicate with someone but there are times when I can not.
It is as if there is a wall separating me from the rest of the world.
Someone told me that my eyes can become glassy and it is as if I'm looking through them.
During the thick fog I might have trouble recognizing someone who I should know.
I also will have great difficulty understanding language.
Words mean so much less to me when I am in the fog.
Sometimes all I can do is sit in my apartment and wait for the fog to pass.
I know that the fog is now a part of my life and I have learned to accept it.
If someone is with me and they recognize the fog, they should tell me that I'm going to be okay and that they are there for me.
They can be more patient with me and this will help me to relax and not stress.
Using a calm, soothing voice, perhaps a little less volume will also be helpful.
Sometimes listening to music will help me get through the fog with less anxiety & stress.
If the fog is thin I might think of putting on my headphones and listening to music, but if it is thick I might be unable to do so.
Someone could get my Ipod for me & put my headphones on me.
I know that the “fog” is now a part of my life and I have learned to accept it.