My thoughts & feelings

Sometimes I feel like I'm holding things together by a thread. I'm very afraid that at any moment the thread may break! How can I understand something one minute and then not understand it the next? I think that sometimes I cry due to the frustration and the fear! Fear about my cognition failing and frustration from trying to do things that don't work out so well. My fear can come from confusion with my diagnosis. Will I ever really know what I'm dealing with? Will I know when or if I can no longer function well on my own? I hate that I've had so many issues lately with my comprehension. How will it affect my school job? I hate when I don’t understand words that I read or what is being said to me. It makes it difficult and sometimes impossible for me to respond. Frustration adds way too much stress to my life!! I worry when I return to school in a couple of weeks because I will then be working both of my jobs. I will be working thirty-two and a half hours a week at school and sixteen hours a week at a retail store. How will that affect my cognition? Sometimes it seems like I'm doing well, then suddenly it is like I hit a road block!