The Fog Returns

This morning, I have been feeling like my brain is foggy, almost as though I'm in a tunnel. While I'm working in a classroom, I was correcting a very easy math worksheet. Example: 3 + 1 =. It seemed to take me much longer than usual to do this. I felt very strange and I just wanted to go home, but I stayed at school. It felt like my brain was clogged and I couldn't clear it out. Voices almost seem further away from me than they actually are. It feels like the people are in the background, but they are actually right next to me. I don't think that anyone is aware of my “foggy brain.” It feels as though the processing speed of my brain is very slow.

After lunch, I felt a little better, but not “normal”. Unfortunately, I have to work both of my jobs today and that means ten and a half hours of work, including the commute, it is a twelve-hour day. I just can't afford to work less hours. Sometime this morning before lunch, I was in the bathroom and I just said a prayer that I would somehow get through my day. I wished that I could just shake my head and the fog or clog in my brain would be gone!

I know that right now I can't afford to buy the medication that helps with my cognition because I have no healthcare. I'm running out of this medication, so I'm not taking it as prescribed which is two pills twice a day. Right now, I'm only taking one pill per day.

Just imagine being fifty-two years old and adding 3 + 1 while being in the fog. On a normal day, without fog, this would have been so easy to solve, but when I am in the fog, everything except breathing can be challenging!