Words

I used to be a very strong speller, but since the memory impairment, it sometimes is a challenge. When I’m not sure how to spell a word, I will usually write it. Sometimes this will help give me some clarity, but sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes even though I’ve written the word, I still can’t figure out whether it is spelled correctly or not, so then I will get a dictionary and look it up.

Most of the time, I can deal with my lack of short-term memory and problems with word retrieval, but the problems with comprehension, not recognizing words and or not knowing what they mean, are really upsetting to me! Since, I really enjoy interacting with people, sometimes I worry about what it will be like if I can't communicate.

Sometimes I feel as though I’m losing “me”, a little bit at a time. It is very scary! I don’t like feeling this way! I feel as though I just want someone to hold me and tell me it will be alright. I’m sad about what I’ve lost when having conversations with my family and friends. I know that I’m still making and enjoying new memories with them, but I wonder how soon afterwards, I am forgetting conversations.