My lack of comprehension

Yesterday, I got a leg cramp. I jumped off the couch and I told my boyfriend what was wrong. Sometimes I get leg cramps in either the calf or hamstring. This time it was my left hamstring muscle. He tried to give me verbal directions such as stand facing the wall, place my hands against the wall. Then he told me how to put my legs and that just wasn’t going well. He kept repeating and I was just not understanding what to do.

I finally told him that I didn’t understand, so I can’t possibly do it right. He kept trying to tell me what to do and I just kept getting frustrated. Luckily, the cramp went away. Later I told him that the next time if it seems like I’m not “getting it” or I tell him that I’m not understanding, then we need to try something else.

I told him that next time, instead of verbal directions, that just weren’t working, that he should show me what to do. Simple, easy steps done very slowly so that I can copy him and get it right.

For me, the longer it takes me to do the task because of my lack of comprehension, the more frustrated I can become. Sometimes the tears start flowing!!

I know that I’ve had these cramps before and he has told me what to do, but I just can’t remember what I did in the past.

I’m not sure if I’ll ever get used to how my brain works, but I know that I need to start having more patience with “me”. I just haven’t figured out how to do that.