Problems with my memory

Yesterday afternoon, I was thinking about my boyfriend. I was replaying a recent day that we had spent together. I don’t remember us saying goodbye or having much conversation together.

Last night, I talked to him on the phone. I asked him what time he left my place yesterday and he told me the time. He said that he sat on the couch next to me. When he left, he gave me a kiss and said good-bye and we talked a little. For some reason, I have no memory of this. I do remember putting the ice pack on my knee and taking something for the pain. I want to hold onto these memories, but sometimes they seem to be slipping away.

I feel as though I’m missing a part of my day! I lived it, but I can’t remember it. Even though he is telling me things about our time together before he left, it isn’t even real to me because I can't remember it. No matter how hard I try to search my brain for these memories, they are just not there. I hate the fact that in this relationship, he will probably hold many more memories than I will. This makes me sad.

I try to concentrate more on all that I can still remember. I start each day with a positive attitude, but sometimes it is difficult for these moments to not bring you down, even for a short time.