Why do I think that I fell again?

(Chapter 3 Memory Problems in my book)

Yesterday was a terrible day because I suffered another horrible fall! I was leaving a gas station after buying a lottery ticket. I think that I tripped on the mat near the door. I went into the glass door with my head. Someone working at the gas station heard me scream so they called 911. I was taken to a local hospital by ambulance. I had numerous x-rays and I had a total of twenty-three stitches. I also suffered a fractured nose and a contusion on my right knee.

I think that I'm still in shock and I don't really believe that this happened! When I went to bed last night, I told my friend, “I hope that when I wake up tomorrow, that this was all just a bad dream!” She told me that wasn't going to happen. It is so very hard for me to understand all of this! I just can't make sense of it!

In thinking about this horrible fall, I remembered that when I entered the gas station that I noticed a very thick black mat with holes in it. It was the wintertime and I live in New England, so I understood why the mat was there, but I thought that the mat was too thick. I had to step off of it and onto the floor. I thought to myself, “I hope that I remember on the way out that I have to step up onto the mat in order to leave the store.”

Since I have a memory impairment which greatly affects my short-term memory, I did not remember the mat at all. Because of this, moments later I forgot all about the mat, tripped over it and I went headfirst into the glass door. I think that if I didn't have a memory impairment, that this probably wouldn't have happened. This is how quickly I can forget things. If I had remembered about the mat, I would've stepped up and onto the mat and exited the building. Sometimes because of my memory impairment it is difficult to keep myself safe.

I've tried to figure out why it happened and I'm convinced that it happened because I have a memory impairment and I wonder how I can prevent this from happening again. It wasn't my fault that I couldn't remember about the mat!