The Fog

(Chapter 9 The Fog in my book)

The new year started out fine, but later I knew that I was a little foggy. My boyfriend and I were watching an NHL hockey game on tv and the commentators said something that didn't make sense to me. I have been watching NHL hockey since the 70s, so I asked him and he clarified it for me. Throughout the day things just continued to be confusing for me and not make a lot of sense to my brain. I told him how I was feeling and he looked into my eyes. He has told me that when the fog is very thick, I sort of stare and my eyes look glassy. He didn't see that this time, so I knew the fog wasn't that thick. Later I told him that I hope that when I wake up tomorrow that the cobwebs will be gone from my brain.

I told him that I kept wanting to shake my head, in hopes of clearing out the fog, but unfortunately it wouldn't have worked. I can compare this to a snow globe because when you shake it, the snow falls. I have also noticed that when the fog rolls in, I can be very sensitive and defensive. Yesterday, morning things seemed to be a little better but I just never know how the rest of the day and night will play out.

Yesterday, it seemed like the fog was gone and I was happy about that. The only problems that I noticed with my cognition yesterday were the usual problems with word retrieval. That is something that I have accepted and have just gotten used to dealing with.