Experiencing things like it is the first time, even though it isn't

(Chapter 13 Interaction with Spouse or Significant Other in my book)

Last night, my boyfriend and I were talking on the phone. We have been together for about four and a half years. I'm not sure how the conversation started, but soon after it did, he said to me, “it must be nice experiencing things like it was for the first time, even though it isn't”.

This didn't make me very happy at all! I told him that it wasn't a good thing for me to go through this, but that I couldn't change things. I told him that I hate the fact that I can't remember a lot of things and that includes a lot of details of our relationship. It makes me frustrated and angry! It took a while, but I think that he was trying to understand how I felt and he apologized. It was very hurtful to hear those words from him!

For someone who lives with a memory impairment, not remembering places, events or even people are not a fun experience. It can stress me out, make me feel scared, sad and sometimes I cry! I can't choose what I remember and what I forget, because it is not even my choice to have a memory impairment.