My thoughts

March 4, 2021

Recently, I realized that I couldn’t remember The Lord’s Prayer. I don’t really know when I forgot this. This should definitely be in my long-term memory. Unfortunately, as I tried to say it, I could only remember a few of the words at the beginning. Then I think that I was remembering some of this prayer but I thought that it was out of order. I was very confused! All I could think about was how sad that this made me and I started to cry. I talked to God and I told Him how sad I was that I had forgotten His word. I apologized to God for not remembering this prayer. Then I opened up my Bible in order to help me say it, but I couldn’t find it in the Bible. I think that it was late at night so I waited to talk to a friend until the next day. When I called my friend, I told her what happened. She told me where to find The Lord’s Prayer in my Bible. Now I have it written down on a sticky paper that I stuck on the first page of my Bible.

When I was growing up, my family and I always went to church on Sunday mornings. My two brothers and I also attended Sunday school. Years later, I taught Sunday school in the same church. I know that I used to know the Ten Commandments, the Beatitudes, The Lord’s Prayer, a lot of the Psalms and so much more about the Bible. I remember that the twenty-third psalm was my favorite psalm and I used to know it word for word. Today I don’t remember much about this psalm. I also know that I used to be able to find different passages in the Bible very easily but now I can’t locate anything. I don’t even know how to read this: John 3:1. I recognize the outside cover of the Bible and I know that it is mine but the words on the pages are very unfamiliar to me. Before Covid-19, I was attending church regularly. Now, I attend it online.

One thing that the memory impairment has taken from me is my knowledge of the Bible and that makes me so very sad. Unfortunately, I can’t control what I remember. I know that this is not my fault but that doesn’t make the realization of this moment any easier. All I can do is pray that God understands why this is happening and that He knows that I haven’t lost my faith.